rrowxkitteh:

I’d like everyone to meet my friend, Cody. He’s amazing and I love him. Let me tell you a little about him…

He’s a gamer and a nerd, completely, and it’s adorable. He can go on and on about his favorite games for hours. When he’s playing them he’ll start cursing when something goes wrong, but it’s always in this cute voice and he censors his curses in the middle of saying them. He get’s super excited when he sees something new is coming out and can’t wait to tell me about it. He loves reading, going through entire series in days, and then he always enthusiastically tells me all about them and suggests to me the ones he thinks I’ll like. We watch Scooby Doo and Looney Tunes together whenever we can, he loves cute things like that. He used to ask if it’d be okay if he played with army men in the future when he hoped we’d be living together. Toy Story is one of his favorite movies. He’s intelligent, we can debate things for hours. I can ask him about anything and we can have a discussion about it, whether it’s science, religion, the future, or anything else. He’s also sweet and sensitive. He helped me through one of the hardest times in my life and he’s always been there to listen when I needed him. He’s been through some tough things in his life, maybe a lot worse than mine, but he’s never used that against me or made me feel like my problems were lesser. He’s called me hot and sexy, but he also called me beautiful, gorgeous, even a goddess. I’m certainly not, but he would never let me say that. He always took the time to try to make me happy with myself and make me feel perfect the way I am. He’d get angry at anyone who hurt or upset me. He’s got one of those smiles that you can’t help but smile too, the same with his laugh. He’s incredibly funny, joking all the time and always has a clever little line to cheer me up if I’m upset. He gives the best hugs of anyone I know, whenever we’re together he always has his arms wrapped around me. He’s one of those guys that you feel safe in his arms. He gets shy and nervous, we live far apart and the first time we met it took him like 15 minutes to get up the nerve to talk to me. He goes online everyday to talk to me, and we’ll talk all night. Sure he gets angry sometimes, and he’s not perfect, but who is?

But you see the thing is, he doesn’t see any of that in himself. He doesn’t think anyone likes him or would want him. He worries about his weight all the time. Look at the second picture and tell me, would you call that fat? He does. He tells me how no one would find him attractive, that I’m the only girl that’s called him hot. He says girls just don’t notice him or bother to get to know him. He doesn’t think they’d like him even if they did. He doesn’t understand how I see him as cute or funny. He doesn’t show it to other people, but he’ll talk down about himself to me. It kills me. How he can’t see he makes people happy just being around them. We recently had a conversation about this, and he asked me how he could possibly be considered attractive ‘compared to a celebrity or someone who’s hot’. And when I tried to explain to him he just said, ‘yet I’m never the one the girls pick, it’s always a friend of mine or something’. I tried to tell him how sweet, funny, smart, beautiful, and caring he is. He sarcastically said, ‘tell that to all the girls who don’t like me.’ So I am, in a way.

We see all these things about girls who have self-esteem issues. Who don’t feel attractive, who worry about their weight, who don’t feel good enough. What about the guys? He is one of the best, sweetest, people I’ve ever met, and yet he never feels like he’s good enough. He feels like no girl would ever like him because he’s a nerd, because he doesn’t like sports or cars. He thinks girls never like a sensitive guy. He thinks he’s fat just because he isn’t insanely muscular.

I’m not going to try to guilt you or call you a bad person if you scroll past this. However if you do take the time to read this and could leave a reply/message or reblog it, it would mean the world to me. I want him to be able to see he is good enough and amazing just the way he is.

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